i can't stand this place sometimes. this place where it's not ok to show emotions. a place where you are criticized for not taking losing well. a place where if you are a woman you have to pretend that nothing bothers you. you just have to take it otherwise you are the bitch. otherwise you are too emotional. otherwise you are just another "woman". you don't measure up. you are not valuable. you are not treated equally. what guys just don't get is that you can't lose otherwise you are weak. if a man loses at something he should be good at, what do other men call him? "pussy, wimp, a girl". so when a woman loses at something she is not supposed to be good at, she gets the look. the look or the feeling like "well you're a girl of course you suck."

and furthermore, when guys get pissed off at freakin videos, no one tells him to calm down. he is just letting of steam. a girl gets pissed off EVER and she is overreacting. well i am sick of the bull shit. no i won't calm down. no i won't shut up. you wonder why i am upset... i have been told too many times that its just a game... its not. its not a game when my self worth is somehow determine how well i play or how i handle defeat.

if you think i am overreacting, i challenge you to take a look at any reality tv show where men and women compete with one another. pay attention to how women are portrayed when they say too much, have an opinion too much, show emotion to much.

this is not to say men are not stereotyped. they also have these absurd measurements to live up to. but you never hear a put down that someone is such "a man". it is good to be a man.

i am sorry if anyone is offended by this. i just needed to get this off my chest.