do you ever come to a point when you realize the direction you're headed in is not going to work out as plan?

i am at this point. i'm stuck.
the dreams i have envisioned, the life i daydream about, the soulmate that fits all who i am...
it's nothing.
it will not be what i have desired.

i have held on to a hope that doesn't exist.

and i realize it for the first time right now.

i just want to go home...

but where is home?

I just returned from Arts Con 2004. I have to say it is the most refreshing time for me.
God renews me. Thursday night, the talk rocked me. It confirmed a lot of stuff in me.
I want everyday be another that I fall in love with Jesus and I want to share it with everyone
who is important to me.

Arts Con talked a whole bunch about being displaced. As followers of Christ, Jesus puts in places
that throw us off balance. What is amazing and very loving about God is that he did the same for us.
He left his thrown and came to earth. Not only did he come to earth, but he became human. Not only did he become
human, but he became a servant to all. Not only did he become a servant, but he chose to die. Not only did he die, but he died the death of criminal. Not only did he die the death of a criminal, but he suffered the most heinous and painful death
a criminal could face. He denied himself his crown for us. That is definitely displacement.