do you ever come to a point when you realize the direction you're headed in is not going to work out as plan?

i am at this point. i'm stuck.
the dreams i have envisioned, the life i daydream about, the soulmate that fits all who i am...
it's nothing.
it will not be what i have desired.

i have held on to a hope that doesn't exist.

and i realize it for the first time right now.

i just want to go home...

but where is home?